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I am no ones worthy , the head of a fish .
Born mermaid , stuck as a man .
Barely human , barely woman . I demand the world to hear me .
I walk as one of you , but scared and fragile . I shy away ,
i refuse to be measured . I have define myself , but no one to get me .
I have cut myself trying to fit .
As an expression of love , i have paint with my blood .
Pain shaped me into someone i'm not supposed to be .
I dream of telling a great story someday .
Through my art , I fear my life will never be as great .
I told myself i'm waiting for no one.
I'm tired of being called dumb for having feelings .
I exist . I want to be like others , i want to be with them , to be happy .
I cut myself again.
I'm stuck in a dark place , cutting years of my life .
I fear i'm doing it intentionally .
I fear of what's comming next. I keep cutting people from my life .
I feel alone, no one to get me, how i truly am .
I'm tired of people .
Everyone expecting something from me .
I no longer fear death .
I don't believe in the afterlife .
I think is freedom from a life i never choose to have .
Never human. Never free .
I want to cut my neck .
I want to swim into the sea .
A whole fish , a normal life .
I crave being normal . To be normal is to be yourself .
Somewhere , where you are not there to see me .
Will you see me again ?
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